My Beauty World

FAN.... arz arz arz.....

2011-09-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

i really dont know y am i like tat. He didnt reply me since a sms send yesterday morning and ard 1 am send a msg in whatapps that he drop his phone in water n spoilt le. I thought that he will bring his ipad to wrk and can use his ipad to sms me ma. recently saw he online in zoosk. my temper is so bad... y, in my heart, i really like him le ma?? y he dun reply me, i will angry, if other friend, i just dun care and straight delete the sms le. yyyy???? what have happen to me, i really dont know, if something happen one more time, i think my temper will explore and call him and scold him and tell how i feel so angry. Feel so tired, single more good, dont need to worry abt who didnt reply u and ba baba.... if happen one more time, i want to end it as maybe he is the one suitable for me, and be friends ba but will not sms often le ba. and maybe i will not so care abt he reply me anot le. Should start a new begining since i quit my previous job and do lasik. Should do something new and know more new friends and maybe meet someone that understand me and suitable, romantic, caring, sweet, gentle, straightforward, sense of humor and cheerful, outgoing and taller than me.

DONT THINK SO MUCH AFTER TODAY, TML IS A BRAND NEW DAY N A NEW YOU>
stop caring, worrying that someone reply or reply. Send him a sms, will see how my mood will be hahahaha... nw come MISS NASTY FELICIA HAHA.....

A brand new start

2011-08-31T09:10:00.000-07:00

31 Aug :

Today late morning went back to casino boh, to return padlock and id card. Reach there than know need to clearance uniform to wardrode dept and lock to deployment n id card n medical card to hr touchpoint. After all these, offical free and no longer a casino dealer. I will miss the dealing games, the changing of cards, and haha my fellow batch mates, nice sup and some nice person i know there. Glad i have a great experience, this one and a half year.

1 Sept: I am free YEAH!!!

Now the time just pass 12 midnight, is a brand new mth and a new start for me. Will be reporting to new job on 12 sept, nw till 11 sept, i am free and can do the things i like and firstly diy earrings for mum. And on 10 sept, movie, shopping and steamboat time with the gers haha. i finally have my weekend n public holiday!!! YEAH WOO... looking forward to new job, new collegues, new manager n brand new enironment, think i need a few days to get used to it. Nw not very rush in relationship stuff, cuz this thing cant rush, muz have feelings and if it success, is success, if nope than nope, right. On 17 Sept uss trip, let us enjoy ourself and have fun. After that day, think of Mr T perfomance and see if he pass my test haha... i believe if he is the one, he is the one, if he nope, there will someone far waiting for the right time to know you and everything jus right n right in path and maybe marriage. I dont rush, let it take naturely ba, nw so far okiez, gd friend haha... let enjoy and luv ur life.

August Happenings

2011-08-15T02:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah.. finally on leave, can have a gd rest n relax and tidy my stuffs as since i wrk this job, no time to look my books, diy stuffs and magazines.

10 Aug - 10 am lasik eye surgery and check up

11 Aug - 11 am eye check up, everything alright

10 Aug, done my lasik eye surgery that i have planned since may. i have been reading the article in their webpage and understand more and in jun, i apply my aug leave and call to book my appointment on 10 aug for the surgery. Happy everything successful and nw on the process of full recovery. That my first big wish for my this year bday, say gdbye to my spec. Second wish, my family members all healthy and happy in what they do and third wish is to find that special someone to spend christmas and perhaps next year new year haha. Enjoy n luv life most important. Stay happy everyday.

20 july - sms someone

2011-08-15T02:31:00.000-07:00

2o july was my off day n i was using my laptop to see my facebook page and abit slow so i use my iphone and nthing to do. I on my zoosk and saw someone leave a msg in my inbox and normally i wont reply and send sms back. But that very day, i write down his mobile no and send a hello sms back and he reply with lots of qns asking about me, my interests and follow down i was not using to it, as last time i will sometime sms weiling or on my off day, i will totaly off my phone and enjoy my personal moments only. From that very day, things start to change and nw i used to check my phone when i wake up and will reply him no matter what things i am doing right nw. He is a nice tempered guy and we sms each other for 2 weeks plus, one day he asked am i free on 9 or 10 aug, can come out for a movie, i say yes and i take leave on that day in order to attend the date. And he passed me a early bday gift, forever friend teddy bear and we watch the zoo keeper movie and meet his pri sch friends (ladies) for dinner and firework. First date overall was ok but we talk less than sms and maybe is our first date in person. My life did change, after he walk into my journey. i really wish he is the one and i will not regret to know him better.

July issue

2011-08-09T02:26:00.000-07:00

Around 2 mths since i last write my blog. Jun is a busy mth, cross training, rl & ts. Standing game omg, feets pain and somemore have two bad things happen while on rl table. Make me have a final decision leaving rws. I dont want to wrk and see those china bitch aps face and yaya payaya... bitch go back ur country la, take singapore salary and still thought they pretty, once they open their mouth, i bloody hate them and wish they shut up.

On 1 Aug, Make final decision, resign and faster leave rws.

On 4 Aug, off day, prepare resign letter

On 5 Aug, interview new job and get throught, start on 12 sept.

On 6 Aug, Hand in my resign letter and last offical day is 5 sept

Really Miss my direction

2011-05-19T08:33:00.000-07:00

Current job, lots of friends quitting le, mostly singaporean as they can get higher pay outside and is 5 days work and weekend u can accompany ur closes ones and friends. Recently hear that the shifu that teach me, as i learn slow during the training is leaving rws. When hear although my mouth say wow, get higher pay than here, of coz leave rws la but in my heart, i feel sad... another nice friend and shifu leaving too. Really leave no much motivation to work on. Another thing, i know that love can be forced. I dun want to be the one who always take the move first and message him, from his message and his eye contact toward me, i know the answer already, he dont like me. Jus a normal friend. Actually i have change alot le, at least i look far. Now i mus plan if i really leave rws, what i want to do, back to admin line or upgrade. As i think i cant believe in guys, i muz surive on my own. Jia you Jia you... if one day i really cant take it anymore, i may quit le. Nw everything is fine. In my first planning, if here i can find someone that luv who i am, i may continue working in rws with him if i cant meet that Mr right here, may leave in half years time or one year later. hahaha...

A visit to Jurong Bird Park with Mum & bro

2011-04-11T10:42:00.000-07:00

Today is a great day at Jurong Bird Park. Bro watch movie and receive 30 percent voucher on jurong bird park admission ticket. One voucher can buy up to 5 tickets. 11 & 12 i am off so suggest my mum last nitez , let go jurong bird park tml ard early noon, coz bro rod and uni start sch on Aug so he free tml too. I think is ard 20 years bk since my parents bring me there the very first time when i am a kid. The memory is so nice and the view there make u relax. Have a wonderful day looking at all those different species of birds and looking at the green trees. We have taken lots of nice photos to keep it as memories n print some nice one. keke.... Bought le two birds soft toys at Birds n buddies show - 2 for 15. the price is reasonable and when u press on a button, got the sound of the species of the bird. Cute n interesting. Feel so happy. Jurong Bird Park has change alot n upgrading too. look bk at the old photos that we take when we are kids, the background total look different. A special day n a good ending. A nice family outing and time fly fast, me n my bro nw is in our 20s already. Tonite will have a sweet dream keke.... nitez my sweet blog.

Happy New Year.. Welcome 2011

2010-12-31T10:30:00.000-08:00

Say a ending to 2010 and welcome a new year 2011. Time really fly man, today is 1 January 2011 already. Have been 8 mths since i first join rws. A brand new year, a list of brand new goals to achieve, really wish to ugrade myself... i still dun noe if i can stay long in this career now. Mths pass mths is like turning to be abit boring. Not much excitement and not much what i wanted in my mind. i think i probably sutiable back to office work, although pay less but more time to accompany familys and friends and can enjoy on public holiday, since join, ph is no longer a holiday le. Muz work and working time different from friends, different to catch up. If out there, i wanted to get a salary same or higher than what i have now, i need to ugrade myself. Nw i muz plan what goals i need to achieve in 2011. Jia you jia you, wish all my dreams come true in 2011. Gonna tune in... tml day shift and one more day... off 2 days and turn to nite shift.. and eat nice breadfast after work keke... night and sweet dream.

Happy outing with weiwei & Pj

2010-09-02T09:51:00.000-07:00

Today meet my two friends of 6 years and plus on.... Thanks pj for my bday present , a mini musical box, like it very much, she understand what u like. I like place out the things i like on a book shelf in my room. Feel very happy to see them.. after work so tired.. next outing is on 12 sept and we going to USS to have fun keke... cant wait for the day. Off day shld place work issue all behind and have fun, movie n shopping n eat gd foods hahaha... and i bought myself a soft toy and keychain that i longer wanted keke. At the moment, i like the life i have and leave it to fate if my fate is to meet my mr right at the time. No rush as... i dun usually trust pple accept, the trusted friends i have during my ite study times. Other than that, i will protect myself within out from getting hurt as i have been hurt by friends so.... i have a protection n i can be nice and can be unfriendly. I am happy nw with my life and my few hao jie mei.

I am who I am

2010-08-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

yesterday is my 23th bday, in the early noon we went to boon lay raja restauarnt, where we will eat there whenever any family member birthday. Some friends posted their wishes on facebook and i realise something, the friends who u treasure n close with some understand u n still got some not understand you at all. In my friends list, i can only trust a few friends. The friends i know when training... hahaha.. those who so close with me, even dun noe yesterday is my bday no bday wishes throught sms or facebook and their bday, i remeber n i plan it to ask those who are close to her, to share present to give her a surprise n my bday lei. None of them wishes at all. So slowly i grown, in my deeper heart, i really cant trust anyone, and slowly i become more zhi wo, all things i will place myself, my feelings at the first place. As to protect myself and i have seen many dark side of the world, coz u treat a person nice, no 100% that the person will treat nice back to u so is better to be Not nice person. Now i learn my lesson, next time i will only remeber those friends that i can trust and not just using me jus a fool. Family member n ur job is always important to me than friends coz i have been thought many hardship with those betrayer. Slowly i become who i am now, seldom angry, temper not so hot anymore, coz angry for what, hurt ur body.. the person treat u like that, u jus act blur and act on it. Sometime i like to be alone in staff canteen coz.. i need a space for myself.

Happy but still long ahead

2010-08-23T15:14:00.000-07:00

Today a nice customer start asking me, where am i from? i reply i am singaporean n he continue ask, how long been here & experinence in this line. I reply going to 4 mths and i am new to this career and he reply wow... u are fast. I think he mean as a singaporean, i am fast to head in n work n have the experiences first than others after a few years. But really this career is not bad, i dun noe i will stay on for how many years but honestly if is smoking free dan i think lots of singaporean will work hahaha... currently, breathe in 2nd hand smoke is no gd for health for long term u noe so... every job has gd n bad points. Happy to hear from the nice guy that he thought that i have work long on this career hahaha n he say u are fast with a smile, i feel happy when they feel happy.

Unexplained Mood..

2010-08-19T14:48:00.000-07:00

Firstly i like the one and have strong feelings and about 2 whole months neber saw him ard canteen or anywhere, someone jus treat me nice and my hearts begin to like him abit. What am i doing? I really really hate myself... tell myself many times that muz know that person well before putting feelings into it. I really really dun want to like anyone anymore and i am really tired of it and been knock down n stand up and mood swing again. jus wanna to myself the cheerful me and do what i like and freedom. Tml will be a brand new day for me and i need to pay attention and fully focus on my career and my aim is i want to be a PS... in the near further and my next challenge is Baccarrat insurance table.. Go go go.... i can make it.... jia you. Honestly i become more confident of myself after wrking this career... but is still not enough. Jia you

Time fly and i begin to forget how u look like and the feeling towards you.

2010-07-11T06:48:00.001-07:00

Now i know, time can make people forget all the things. As time pass, u will slowly forget. Ard one mth didnt saw him le ba, the feelings that i have before, begin to fake away with the time. Finally i know the uglyest side of the world, in this world, there no one who will luv who u are, except ur family members. Sometime i wonder if i am a beauty, will that someone walk forward and try to know u better. In the true world, u got face the uglyest side of human. I have tell myself not to like anyone again but again n again, it happen. I realise i am tired n nw i just want to enjoy my life and work hard for my career. Sometime i feel that, only family member, money n some great friends is important to you only. The rest is only walking pass ur life. I begin to look n think wider, gd bye... it will no longer stay in my heart and not the important one and wont look at you anymore. Just a nobody now. Tml is a brand new day for me and go go go felicia...

郭靜-知道

2010-07-11T06:48:00.000-07:00

Eye Swollen, Pain & itchy

2010-07-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday go and see doctor coz left eye swollen, pain n itchy and upper eyeline got a small lump. Last week early nite got two days not at smoking area only, dan off bk to work day shift, first day bk only, smoking area dan non smoking dan third dan smoking area again and is at the worse zone e. Omg, half way ard 7 plus like that, i thought tat my eye dry, feel itchy and go apply eye drop dan... after that, when i blink my eye, it feel pain and abit swollen and when reach hm, i lift up my upper eye line and saw a small lump, dan in my heart i was like omg, got to see a doctor tml morning already coz is swollen and we need our eye to work on dealing right. The stupid zone e, think they didnt even clean up the table and vaccumn the layout, zone a still ok, coz table close at 3 plus dan they can wipe the table clean the chair and vaccumn the floor, the zone e the ceiling is low and damm smoky, the china person there like to smoke those cigratte with methol damm bloody smelling and some idioit blow the smoke on ur face. Anyother angry thing is dun know how the deployment work one, almost all malaysia staff in deployment dan i smoking area is on rotation is fare to everyone right, almost eveyday go smoking area..... dun know how they plan, if tml tap card, is again smoking area.. i really going to find them and say i sore eye and u placing me at smoking area, and how my eye gonna recover. Bad service, rude staff also, human will fall sick right, dun tell me deployment staff wont fall sick, talking bloody shit thing la. After wrking here, my temper have gone up and customer service pls, if i go buy something, the person is rude, i will trick them like shit. Nw i hate deployment pple so much, they in my eye is only shit and the customer too, in my eye and mind is only game cycle n chip and correct payment, and i dun need to please them, if they lose money, is their bloody own business to come in casino and lose all ur money and dun come here and throw ur temper at us dealer. Cant stand it man.... i begin hate going crowded place and talk less le... coz due to the uglyest side of human... pls dun have bad habit to go casino. n smoking.. horz.. Bloody shit day. wish to get one week mc, how to place customer with my eye swollen like that, tml not going to apply anything on my eye area, if pm or ps say me, i gonna talk back, just mc back , eye irration, what u want, how to draw eyeliner like that. i realise something, after wrk for two mths, i begin to hate looking at pple, i rather looking at the walls, n listening to music.. see alot of digusting pple there.

My Daily Mood

2010-06-06T15:31:00.000-07:00

6 jun nite... we are same shift, same zone and same break time. Get to see before reporting, i was filing up my cup with plain water and he walk pass and say a, haven go up, i know his voice but my reaction is slow and reply, ah, haven...in my mind i plan to say a haven, today come late and wanna to ask him which zone he in. He walk away le... dan break time same lift and he look at me and i smile at him naturally. After work... i go off first dan wait for jos dan go canteen to look for eric but he go off first le, dan we walk back to the exit there dan saw him queue to place his uniform back, he look at our direction also. His eye tell me is like he is looking for sometime to walk pass from the canteen to the exit where he is. Dont know maybe i think too much dan up to the bus that fetch me hm, dan jos haven, so i call her, dan when my bus pass by than saw her standing across the waiting area , i wave bye to her and smile dan look forward saw him standing there... i was guessing he move to toa payoh le...,dan call jos to look out for me. She sms me back yeah, he jus move to there.. woo... dan i will not saw him in train and bus to wrk place le ba... em got standard timing de. I got think of move to there but i cant get used to sharing room and abit no freedom...as in my own hm i can be freedom, athough go hm take much time is ok la. Jos say me.... y me and him no talking. Sometime i got something to talk to him but not the correct time, he walk away to smoke or i walk away to do something. Now i begin to believe fated.. if we are fated... we will get to c each other no matter where, what time.. Sometime he is weird.... he cheerful and a sudden he quiet.. actually i am a quite talkative person, i can talk alot although i know that person only today, so is a matter of correct timing. His eye is telling me, he want to get attention to look at him while jos think that he know that i keep looking at him. Back pandan very clearly, i look at him as sometime he face here ma... but anyway... he is a nice guy, with a nice smile and character. This type alot of gers will like. hahaha.... tml muz no mistake... dun like smoking area man. Now i wish my career path steady and wish to find another half and settled down before 28. Felicia dun think so much la, time to tune in la.... slp time and recharge full battery to gabatte for tml. treasure 3 more days to see him hahaha... after that next week, i morning le, dan he day. i off, he start wrk. May not see each other often le.

Maybe and Maybe

2010-06-05T15:47:00.000-07:00

It been two weeks le... i begin to like my new job and get used to it le. So lucky... this week same shift as him, before work and after work can see him. Didint get to see him during break time... different break time. Today after work, i change back to my own clothes le and saw him, waiting to change to his own clothes dan... he look at me, dan i look at hm as... i am talking to friends from U2, they having break... dan talk abt need to resign the assignment. i n jos walk to briefing room to resign. Dan.. i miss the bus dan need to wait for another one. I keep thinking.... sometime he look at me quite long.... i got think maybe if god can give us a chance to be together and i wonder how the process is it like. As i haven been in love with a person for so long and in my heart, i feel that he is the one. Alot of maybe in my mind.... that maybe he like me, maybe we can be together, and maybe we are each other fated another half, maybe he my first and last. I dont think nw he know that i like him, i still dun have much confidence as... i not those pretty gers out there. I am just a simple ger with my own character. At the moment, happy is important and start firm on work. As i dont want to be emo again and it did effect my performance on work. I got lots of qns in my mind.... maybe i think too much, the way he look at me is like getting some attention from me. Overall i am happy that this week can see him.. keke.... let fated decide, got fate... will see each other everyday... no matter at where, no matter what time... we will still see each other ard in canteen. Time for bed time.... recharge and jia you for tml. Gabatte.

Every thing is smoothly

2010-05-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

I dun feel so shy as before and rush too. Leave everything to be natural... cute today, he is in the previous bus and i in the next bus. One of my friend saw that train in the red line have arrive, so we rush up the eslator and i look in the train and saw that he look toward the eslator . And i walk pass him as seats are full so we walk to next carbi.. and seat down, i look back, he also look back and i will turn my head to look at other things hahaha... everything to be natural and leave it to fate .. maybe he is my first and last one. I am happy now.... can have a gd nite slp...

Think too much n deep

2010-04-28T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today katie tell me more info on Mr X, then i act like em... coz i doesnt want her to know that is me who wants to know him. I shld smile and say hi to him.... act like that not so weird. When i was chatting with katie, he got turn and look at us. When i open locker, i lend friend safety pin, dan he wants to return me so call my name, i notice he also look at my friend dan me. one point, i have think too much le... everything has to be natural and leave it to faith. yaya... have a gd nite slp and tml morning will be a different .

I feel lost...

2010-04-27T06:17:00.000-07:00

I dont know what am i up to. I feel happy n excited when t think this guy is fine. and my friend have help me get his email and number. Now i feel so lost... as i think that he will that i am ugly and baba.... i saw him smoking, i know that very clearly that he is open minded and welcome among gers and will go pub. i really hate myself sometime, i have told myself not to like anyone anymore, coz is so gu.... nw i really hate hate hate myself, wish the clock can turn back, and everything back to normal. I scare of adding him, as we see each other eveyday. In another way, what i scare of, just adding as a friend.... after that still dun noe. My stupid mind...just think another way, i shld stop this at the correct time. I will not add him, as place him in some part of my heart that enough. I scare of pple laughing, that i want to know him is surely feel something for him. All the pple in his grp will know and oh gose..... fan fan fan arz. I tell myself tml wake up, forget everything. Not fan... and just act as nthing happen.

Moody & Emo day

2010-04-07T10:38:00.000-07:00

I dun noe today why i am so moody and emo. I will still be serious for my training. Stress cause i have no confidence. The worst one now is faster than me. Sometime, stress can make a person moody. I must do my best but first i need to clear all my moody mood away from my heart and mind and do my best and be serious. Saw a report on tyra bank news, a normal teen ger been signed by a model agency. She is a gd example to all curvy gers. One day we must have the courage to go for it, or the chance will slip away. Maybe i am too sensitive, all guys is the same, say loudly that they dun look for becautiful one, in the heart, they wish to have a presentable girl to show off to their guy friends. Abit regreted, i shldnt tell anyone i have a crush feelings toward that guy. All will return back to normal, i just place that in my heart. Now is ok, at least i know wat type of person he is and i haven drop into the trap yet so now. Tml a brand new day, a brand new start and do my best no joking anymore. Back to myself and i promise i will not falling in love with anyone again and show my real true feelings to anyone. Be strong and do my best. A brand new felicia is back.

Time pass fast

2010-03-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

I feel happy that i have meet a bunch of friends that are fun- loving, with kampong spirit. But time pass fast, 4 more days we graduate from training and 36 of us will be in different shift time. We have each other number, we can keep in touch and meet out to drink tea although meet only 1 hr... we must treasure each other as we 36 can meet each other and in the same group is a fate. I like them so much, but in near future , i gonna be handle alone, no one will tell u mistake and must have confidence in ourself. I must really jia you and correct all my mistake as possible and think step step before deciding so as not to make a mistake. Will miss you guys... i will say hello and smile... when ever i saw them. I realise i have become more brave, confidence and trust myself i can do it, i can do it, i can do it, i can do it. Jia you u can felicia. go go go !!!!!!!

Days Fly Fast

2010-02-27T07:24:00.000-08:00

Days passed really fast, tml is the last day of CNY. On 1st march, i gonna start my new job and a brand new experience at Resorts world sentosa. In 2010, i must be strong, confidence and cant let down of all my relative and parents and friends supports. If i get the casino cert, i must do my best and it will be my new peak of my career path. Go for it felicia, you can do it well. All the past sadness and disppointment all throw away. On 1st march, it will be a brand new me. A happy me... yeah go for it.

14 Blades Movie

2010-02-04T08:34:00.000-08:00

Today went to jurong point with my bro and mum. Today is the showing of the movie " 14 Blades". Cast by zhao wei, qi yuwu, wu zhen and yen zi fan. Is a very good action movie. Worth it to watch, the action move and the script flow and the casts. I give a 5 stars to this movie.

I have 3 more weeks of slacking, i will be starting my work on 1 march so must enjoy myself now, next is the wolfman movie that i feel like watching, is in cinema next week on 12 feb... not so sure about the date but i wish i can catch it on sat coz my gugu they all come to our home... i also nthing to do, rather they asking me qns, y not i went to wm for a movie and back at hm ard 5 plus hahaha.

Actually i dont like chu yi coz they come your home, and at the end of the day, need to do clean up, very tired.. all the snacks bit on the floor and dusts. I like chu er as can go hougang grandmum hse, wear nice nice coz we only see each other once a year.

Sweeet dreams

2010-02-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

Recently, having a dream of me and my Mr right. The only thing i know from the dream was, he is tall ard 180. The facial is blur and the weird is we know each other in a beauty school, i am a part time student and he is the art director and lecturer there. I like him at first sight. Slowly we know each other and fall in love, after school, he will wait for me and have dinner togther and fetch me hm. The only thing i saw clearly was he is tall and well build, his dressing is neat and cool, character, caring, calm and warmth. Overall is a very dream, wish is gonna be true that i will meet my Mr right in this year 2010. Should place some pink stuff ard my room and some accessiories in my bag.

I enjoy the sweet dream... hehez

Sunshine Day

2010-01-27T02:41:00.000-08:00

i just finish watching a korea drama - you are beautiful, good actor & actress. Park Shin Hye as Go Mi Mna , jang geun suk as hyung- min , lee hong ki as jeremy and yong hwa of CN blue as Shin Woo. A nice comedy and romance drama... like PSH acting skills in this drama. i feel that i like music more than anything, i enjoy listening to Kpop songs, especially rap part hehe. When i watch drama & listening to music, i feel freedom and live in my own peaceful world. yesterday i found another nice drama, is a japan drama is convert from japan comic book. very funny too hahaha. Wish there is another upcoming drama act by Park Shin Hye.

Miss my brother and good old times

2010-01-17T06:37:00.000-08:00

Today kind of miss my brother. He went to brunei for army training on 12 Jan, i and my parents went to the airport to see him went in than we take cab hm. Is the first time, he go overseas without my parents, when i wave goodbye, my tears nearly roll down but i tell myself, he need to grow up and be a man. Kind of miss him, got his lame joke and when he on his pc, he will surely play some music on I Tunes and when me and mum watch tv, will hear the music coming from his room. 30 jan he will be back in singapore, one of the days, i and mum will bring him go bugis or anywhere to buy some new clothes for CNY. Dont know y, miss the good old times we have fighting over toys or foods haha, time fly fast, he is 19 going to 20 this year and i am going to 23 this year. As we grow up, we begin to miss those good old times, when you have fun and be a child, once you grow up, you need to be responsible of what you do, must have ur own thinking. I just want to be a simple me, just do the things i like and enjoy it. Wish during this year cny, relatives wont ask me those same qns again, how ur wrk,y still single no bf ba..ba..ba. Pls, CNY is once a year, cant dont ask those qns to spoilt the mood. 2 weeks, my bro is coming back.. hehehe.

I am so feeling unwell recently

2010-01-11T02:16:00.000-08:00

My body starting to give bad signal... having a bad stomach, must really avoid spicy and oily food and rest more. Today not feeling well on mc leave. My manager call my hse, not polite at all, still say other pple call in company not polite, hate this type of bossy pple. A sick person of course need rest and peace time, like that i wont recover well what. Honestly, today is my last day.. she ask me to work till 30 jan... if it really stick to today is my last day, the rest of the things you need to handle yourself, dont want to employ a newcomer, die die want the malaysian ok lol... u wait till april... dan he can commit lol. sick sick sick .

Countdown 16 days to My freedom

2010-01-10T01:17:00.000-08:00

Yeah... 16 more days to my freedom. Really sick of the current job. Promoters rushing for pays, i rush client for payment. tired and sick of it and this is not i enjoy and have passion on. I am not a accountant, must in charge of pay-roll. 16 more days and i am out of it, 30 Jan is my last day. Previously say until so nicely, will employ a ger to be my replacement, dan i train her a week and let her work alone, see she can do the standard anot. Horz... funny, now is the 2nd week oredi, two weeks more to my last day. Now i dun care is newcomer is coming or not, i just do my things, update all pending job and 30 jan end of the event is bye bye la.... nothing to do with the company, i start my new goal & plan for 2010. Cant stand it... so sian... nw just to ren the 16 days that it. End of it... and over. Start anew beginning.

Still Thinking

2009-12-27T02:59:00.000-08:00

Feel like no energy this few days... half excited and half sad that need to work till late on new year eve.. got a countdown party at tampines central park... actually honestly i like host function in the the ballroom dan like cc... coz is outdoor and diffcult to find toilet also. Saturday i will claim the day off. got something on that day. Wish time pass faster and i can leave the long hour job make my mind & body tired. In the weekend, i cant slp well, m mind keep thinking of the things that have ended.. omg.. sick of it, just dun have a time peaceful for me. Some damm promoter call in the weekend, pls u need t o rest, pple dun need to rest arz. M to F work, at least weekend give ppl a break right. After i leave this job, i will go change my mobile number.. like that i dan really freedom and have a gd nite slp. 4 or 5 dec will be my last day... haven find a new staff, joke and say i cant leave, oh so sry... i have my own appointment too. if you 3 mth cant find a suitable one, dan i wrk for another 3 mth arz... no no no. no such things loz. i also need to find new job or start sch to further studies.
Justy wish time pass fast dan i leave the company. Everyday knock at 6pm, the latest time is 6.10pm bye bye..

LET ME EMO

2009-12-19T09:42:00.000-08:00

I am feeling emo recently... hate mostly everything around me. What going on with me, very fan fan fan fan fan fan fan fan fan fan arz. Now my head is only work , studies and familys. Now the xin qin, have no mood for girl- guy things. I am sick of it, just think of faster leave my current job, my hp bill amount increase in double when there is event on that mth, and what this mth, my hp bill is 60 plus, OMG, i can pay two months hp bill. Sicking man... i hate it when it touched my personal thing like hp bill. I wish i can live in my own life, with music, and do what i enjoy... freedom and peaceful life, there no stress.. just happiness. But living in singapore, is tough.. must have gd education... and scare of replace by a foreign worker.. damm hate the chinese women... can get back to ur bloody China...

A great shopping day with sab

2009-12-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

When i wake up in the morning, feel very sian... yesterday 11pm dan reach hm dan sat need to go back to work. But when i think of ya i meeting sab after work... no longer sian.. think ard 4 mths - 5 mths since last gathering. We meet at orchard at 2.10pm, a bit angry... the bus broke down in sudden than need to wait for another bus 285, waste time, and the weather is hot... lucky the waiting time is not that long. I reach orchard ard 2.20pm, we shop ION dan go wheellock place collect my IPOD nano, free after resign plan with Singnet. It so slim and is 5th Gen, woohoo. I bought a case and two earphone pads, one orange and blue. Blue for my bro. We head to far east after that, nothing to shop, we decide to do manicure haha.. i haven done it for ard 1 year plus, last time i have a habit of doing french.. now lazy and think that is waste of money but since so long neber do manicure. Happy my naills is painted with sliver glitter colour... xmas mood hahaha. The lights is so beautiful at orchard road and is crowded with pple 2. On our way bk, we discuss on plan a xmas eve bbq and chalet at pasir ris on xmas eve... shld have a break and have fun.. wrk for 5 1/2 days shld have a shopping day to have fun and chat chat with friends. Now must start planning the xmas party thing.... see can book the date and foods bababa... lots. Now time to slp zZz.. charge energy for tml drama day hahaha.
Thanks saB, i have a great day.. free meet out again...

New Moon Movie

2009-11-26T08:59:00.000-08:00

Today meet my cousin to watch 2012, but when i went to Jp Golden village... the ticket is sold out so asked is there 7.50pm slot left for NEW MOON movie. Happy, lucky still got ticket. While we wait till time to go into cinemas, we walk to nearby shop to take a look and we wear to jean yip to take a look at their facial package.. from far away i saw three army guys in their army uniform, i didnt take a second look at that moment, i turn my head back and look in Precious Thots. Think abt it for 2 secs, dun feel like going in so i turn my head straight... and i saw a famliar pair of eyes looking at me, our distance is only 7 to 8 cm apart. I was stund and he stund too for 3 secs.. i was recalling who is he, after 3 secs, my head have a message.. oh.. he is darren the guy i first saw when i have the arts test the first trip to amk ite and the guy i like. He also know who i am, and smile and lift his hand up and say Hi, i also do the same in return. after that we both walk away. I neber think of meeting him again, as he live at pasir ris and me at gombak, one head and another at the end. As i dont look the same and i am not the old felicia, that are super shy although i still feel shy infront of guys. He still look the same, nice pair of eyes. Time to when in for our movie, so went to queue to buy popcorn and a pack of potato chips and head in. I so excited to watch this movie, although i have reading all four books of Twilight saga, movie you can see the action and the actor and actress.. while books, you can only image in ur head. Waited so long for the NEW MOON movie to be shown in cinemas in spore, this mth is the sneak preview.. the real showtime is 3 dec. Overall nice... handsome Edward Cullen hahaha.. if i fall in love in someone that can live forever n forever, i will have the same thought as bella, to be the same as him to stay with him forever, forever & forever. Human.. will age slowly... really wish to meet my Mr right this year.

Comedown one and half day to weekend

2009-11-05T06:38:00.001-08:00

Feel sleepy.. everyday waking up early when to work and off work... today finally got some time to log in facebook and surf net. Must find something i like and enjoy doing to feel happy. During work, doing the account records... the previous ger didnt record every cheque out or in properly... lucky got cheque book to refer. My head big man.... check and key in and petty cash claim. Cant wait for tml... meeting angeline babe.. think got 8 mths i last meet up with her, i busy with wrk, she busy with studies... muz treasure tml 2 hrs time.. eat something nice and sit down chat. The most sian is sat got to go back office, design the corporate gift brochure... designer at least got design fee lei, i dun have... normal salary only lei. Wish tml time pass faster... i can off wrk and go meet angeline babe, and than sat half day...after wrk go hm hav a nap than do mask and surf net hahaha. Actually who like to OT haha. everyday wrk for 8 hrs le... still wan OT meh... muz have some of our own time ma... doing the things you like.. like ut hobbies right.
Coz nwi feel like i am not happy... everyday wrk wrk wrk like a robot. Hehe... muz find some time get back to my DIY accessiors haha.. from there i find my happiness and design what style i want. Nitez Nitez... a nice tml

Dizzyness

2009-11-01T03:25:00.000-08:00

Feel abit... emmm.. i miss the halloween night. On friday, half way through the events... my stomach is turning, my head is heavy... i know i gonna vomitting, i stop eating eating and drink some ice water. we finish keep all things, i tell myself.. i muz ren, not to vomit till i reach my hm. I keep tell myself muz ren and close my eye in the taxi. I am the second to reach hm, and bath, the vomitting feel become worse but i know after vomitting my throat will feel worse so i ren.. and go to bed, the next morning i walk up, my head very dizzy, i cant balance well. My first thinking, i feel bad that i unable to make it to halloween night. I know my body well, tink is i didnt eat much things tat night due to my dizzy head. Honestly I am tired. I try to ask myself, what i really enjoy doing with pazzion?, i dont feel happy. not like last time. sometime really hate my life and i begin to understand the darkness in the world and in people. I just cant accept the darkness side of human and the world. Cant everyone treat everyone pure from the heart. Hate the world, i just want to be myself and not polluted. I think i am not suitable to the outside world.... actually i like working in-house...

Feeling Tired & sleepy

2009-10-26T08:44:00.000-07:00

Now a days feeling very tired.. have not enough sleep, a day only slp 7hrs. Than only sunday got a full days off. She say only for this few mths 5.5 days work, wish really is like that, if long term, very tired. I choose this job coz of event and another is 9 - 6pm, i am ok sat & sun got event muz work. If is ot on sat, thats boring & waste of bus fare. Tmr got to knock off at 6pm sharp, dan go to slp early coz wed got a event after work at shangri-la hotel, excited coz first time step in the 5 star hotel ballroom woohoo. Lucky is a small event and by 9pm the guests are free & easy, networking... cool right. Wish there some handsome ang mo in the Kick-off meeting and can get to know them and get their email address hehehe. Muz go blow my hair dry before go to bed. Nitez Nitez... wish tml wake up will be a great dat ahead.

Done my half buying list

2009-10-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

I have realise about 4 mths ago since i last buy my facial products and body wash.. etc. All used up le, mus refill haha... so today after work, meet my parents at clementi mrt and head down to outram park- people's park complex where all the daily product from toothpaste to hair care, boday care are selling a few dollars cheaper than other place. Happy that i have final clear half of my buying list. Work one mths le, really didint shopping much and buy the things i wanted but is ok, muz spent less and save up money for next year march travel trip to tawian... wanted to buy scarf and shoes from there. So excited, wish time fly and reach march hehe... looking forward to the trip. Feeling sleepy, nite time.

A tired week

2009-10-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

Today feeling super tired than any saturday, coz slp at 12 am last nite and get up at 6.10am. Report to wrk 9am to 1pm. I admited i am too harsh on the public holiday thing but i feel that i have the right to claim, not because i am new in the company, you can eat up my holiday. One weird thing is my own thinking, got event, we need to work on sat & sun, can claim day off. Is like got one event on sat is 11hrs, counted can claimed one day and for sun that is a event only 5 hr 45min dan counted by hours, claim half day. I like this job so muz ren. Hate the unpleasant feeling. Honestly someday in the morning i have my things done and i dun dare to ask her, anything else to do coz she may think the wrong way that i wasn't doing my job. First time chasing payment, that i dont like most. Now is do my job well and learn experience and as much as i can... to step a head to apoloize for the harsh thing i have done to lead to unpleasant feeling happen. I really must control my harsh and temper.

Happy Bday Dad

2009-10-17T10:39:00.000-07:00

Feeling happy except the public holiday issue. Today is Dad's 55th bday, i order Swensen Ice-Cream cake on tue and collection date is today. Yesterday nite i slp late, slp all the way till 3 plus dan i wake up, eat abit of nasi lemak. Wait for bro to come home, ard 7pm we head to wm sakae sushi, help dad to order noodles soup and some side dishes, while i & mum eat sushi and wait for bro to come. A happy day hehez.. when we reach hm, we sing bday songs in eng & chi and take pic & eat the cake togther. I order 1 kg, enough to eat.. the rest keep for bro to book out on wed nite. Happty 55th to DAD and live long life and healthy.

Public Holiday Issue, Shld have my claim off

2009-10-17T10:25:00.000-07:00

Today than confirm know that deepvali day is today and at that moment i not sure that mon need to report to wrk anot. So on the way walking to wm to celebrate dad bday at sakae sushi, i ask my mum & my cousin about it. The result was a yes, mon is a public holiday. I sms my company co-founder and confirm, she reply no, is for those who work on saturday, i was thinking, if like that is not fair to those non- working on sat. I log in MOM website and search, the result is a yes, it stated, company give extra's pay on upon working on a rest day or give employee a extra day off as a holiday. I sms her the details, as i dun want to talk to her in the phone. So she didnt reply, if she insist on mon report to work, i will take my action upon calling MOM. Don't know why some company dont go by the law, extended working hours..etc. Like friday, i stay late in office, one reasons is assisted to design a lucky draw coupon, tue muz email to clients. The designer is not free to handle the job, so last min thur morning msg me, morning fel... etc. Some company will get for granted .. you stay late mean, they tink you can stay late every day. Last week is a tired week.... got a bit unhappy with this issue.
For mon i will not report to work, is she insist, i will take my action.
This is under employment act.

Tired

2009-10-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

I have a tired week, nearly everyday 8 plus pm than reach hm, bath and eat dinner at 9 pm. Feel sleepy too, my eyes very tired too. Today actually meet kw, 2 weeks ago we say hao de, than late noon called cancel. When she called, i am busy designing lucky draw coupon, i msg i will call later, when i go toilet. I also have no time to be angry... got work to rush. The meeting off, i stay in office to rush the work done, ard 7 plus... leave and take bus to take train to causeway point to return the only one library book. I dislike to borrow books from library, i rather go there and have a read. You have no time to remeber when due date muz return, coz got once, i forgot the due date and fined 20 cents. I hate it la, if is a nice book, i will buy it at popular bookstore. This week, everyday, went to wm buy stamp, transfer tpromotor pay. No time to log in facebook & update my personal blog. Next week got to knock off at 6 pm sharp & tune in early, or else every week gonna to be tired
but feel happy, this weekend no going out... and slp late and watch my drama. hehez... eyes gonna shut le... nitez time to tune in.

High tea at Sheraton Tower Hotel

2009-10-11T06:03:00.000-07:00

Today is a treat from elysia at sheraton tower hotel. Friday nite, i search in the net for location and when into their website and saw the pic of the water fountain. I really know there is a great place for high tea & dining. I reach there early and sit infront of the business centre to wait for them, while they are coming soon, i went to the washroom, nice washroom haha.. with orchid woo. When jz & kw reach, we decide to wait for elysia to reach than we went in togther, lucky i was a step faster to pass the cake to a lady before both of the bday boys reach. The food there is nice and the water fountain. My stomach very full today... skip my dinner, eaten too much .. not feeling hungry now. But worth it. Nice weekend. Got to slp early tonite tml gonna go POSb bank to check the cheque problem and head to work at clementi, wish tml weather is not tat hot. hehez. nitez

My weekend

2009-10-11T05:49:00.000-07:00

Saturday, actually meet elysia 3.30pm at shangri la hotel to see the ballroom layout, but traffic jam, i reach orchard ard 4pm... so meet straight at ngee ann city to attend the jewelfest 09 by Tian Po. Get the chance to see special & nice jewels. woo... and of course have a glass of champagne and some dessert. Ard 5 plus, we head to takashimaya folie folie... elysia helping her bro to select a present for her niece bday, i still wonder what a sat crowd in takashimaya... woo ask elysia.. and i found out no wonder so crowded coz of 50 to 70% for all store in taka. We did a quick shop and get in a cab and head to tampines c.c hara raya celebration. The Emcee not so good.. should come up with some fun games... 7 t0 8pm.. singing and still singing... OMG... after finish the dinner... still singing. U can still but not only malay song, coz there is chinese & india residents attending too. Make it more interesting. We went off early to tampines mall to buy bday cake for tml.
Feeling sleepy... this few days didnt slp tat well. On the way hm from tampines... closing my eye and rest. reach hm ard 12 midnight, bath and slp time.

A delicious dinner

2009-10-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

Fel's Mood Sunny.

Today after work, meet my cousin at wm to pass her pay for being a event crew on 3th oct 09, a successful mid- autumn event. Dinner, we decided to eat sushi hehe, actually is me who decide haha, quite some time since i last eat sushi. Yup yup, stomach damm full. On the way, walking out of wm, saw a dress quite nice, just take a look, never go and try it on. Wish 15th faster come, i can claim and buy 2 more dresses and facial products at outram park. Time to go to bed... recharge myself for tml work. yeah 2 more days to weekend... can slp zZz late and spent time reading my fav book & catch my drama hehe. Nite Nite & sweet dream =p.zZz

A great first experiences

2009-10-05T04:04:00.000-07:00

Happy that the event ended, i am happy coz i have learn alot from my mistake as is my first time. My first experience is a great one. I have meet good event crews. Thanks they all for attending the event. Feel great, after the event, all our hard work is not wasted and you can see the smile on their faces. Last nite i didnt slp well coz of my sunburn on my shoulder hurts & my head feel heavy ,unable to report to work. Go see le doctor.. feeling better and tml going back to work. After the whole three events, i got granted some things and know new pple. A unforgotful memories. =p